Fa***ts: Soccer

I personally haven’t heard the homophobic slur thrown at me or even in general at all in my life. I dislike hearing it from gay guys, which is where I’ve mostly heard it from but they usually use the shorter version.

I was watching a live soccer game tonight with my boyfriend (his brother was playing) and his dad called the opposing team players fa*****. I was having a really great night and it had never even crossed my mind that that’s something that he would have ever said. I was honestly in complete shock.

I guess it’s because he seems to have a good relationship with his son now that I didn’t quite expect it. But I guess habitual expressions die hard.

Just felt like sharing. Kinda needed to get it off my chest.

The boyfriend came over for 10 minutes to cheer me up.

I was a little down today. I got my letter yesterday telling me that I didn’t get into the masters program that I wanted to. Only one school left and it’s not one that I really want to go to. 

He drove all the way to my place just to hold me in my arms. He’d eaten some dumplings so we couldn’t even kiss. He was just holding me and making me feel like my world was nothing but perfection. 

He’s seriously beyond amazing. I’m surprised everyday at how lucky I got. I could have never dreamed of someone as caring as him. And he’s mine.

Boys Update:

The boyf came with me to my cousin’s birthday supper with most of the family there. It was pretty special and amazing. I’d never brought a boy to meet the extended family before. Nothing dramatic happened. But it was just one of the most specialist things ever :)

We worked out earlier together which was really hot and awesome. But I didn’t eat most of the day. The resto we went to was a chinese buffet and I can’t eat anything there. Or at least I don’t trust that there wouldn’t be any gluten contamination there. So I ate a bit before we left. He drove me, my sis, aunt and I to the resto. He was super cute and looked amazing! 

He’s sleeping in my bed right now. We gotta get up early but I just can’t sleep so I’m watching Celebrity Big Brother and eating foodz. We were just in bed laying there kissing and cuddling. He falls asleep super quickly and snores like a monster jajaja, it’s pretty terrible :P but there’s nothing better than just being in his arms and knowing he’s mine.

Thought I’d share my little update about the ItalianBoy while I’m up from insomnia ^ - ^

<3

I have this. And I’ve never been happier

(Source: colbrandon)

The boyf surprised me :)))

Everything’s going so great cuz he’s more than I ever dreamed of.

I never fell for anyone. I never had this much chemistry with someone. I knew so quickly that he would make me happy. I don’t know how to explain it. There’s no game or bullshit. I feel so comfortable with him. I let him see me and he doesn’t run away. I can be me.

 

Ughhhhh HE MAKES ME SO HAPPY ^ - ^ 

anotherhot:

Shower Time

I shower so often with my boyfriend.

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It turns out procrastination is not typically a function of laziness, apathy or work ethic as it is often regarded to be. It’s a neurotic self-defense behavior that develops to protect a person’s sense of self-worth.

You see, procrastinators tend to be people who have, for whatever reason, developed to perceive an unusually strong association between their performance and their value as a person. This makes failure or criticism disproportionately painful, which leads naturally to hesitancy when it comes to the prospect of doing anything that reflects their ability — which is pretty much everything.

But in real life, you can’t avoid doing things. We have to earn a living, do our taxes, have difficult conversations sometimes. Human life requires confronting uncertainty and risk, so pressure mounts. Procrastination gives a person a temporary hit of relief from this pressure of “having to do” things, which is a self-rewarding behavior. So it continues and becomes the normal way to respond to these pressures.

Particularly prone to serious procrastination problems are children who grew up with unusually high expectations placed on them. Their older siblings may have been high achievers, leaving big shoes to fill, or their parents may have had neurotic and inhuman expectations of their own, or else they exhibited exceptional talents early on, and thereafter “average” performances were met with concern and suspicion from parents and teachers.

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David Cain, “Procrastination Is Not Laziness” (via sociolab)

The first two paragraphs are my entire life.

And I still haven’t finished my application for grad school btw.

(via pragnacious)

Welcome to life after Exeter.

(via wi—nk)

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Oh dear. Oh fucking dear. This explains so fucking much

(via searchingforknowledge)

This legit describes everything perfectly. I spent over 12 hours at the library pulling an all nighter. And it was only during the last 2 hours that I was there that I actually accomplished any work. So much anxiety man.

(Source: pawneeparksdepartment)

I genuinely have one of the most amazingest boyfriends in the whole world. I never knew boys like him truly existed.

Boys Update: In a Relationship

HE’S MY BOYFRIEND :D!!!!

So effing happy ^ - ^

You guys. I’m so happy.

"Thanks for being my Jack tonight"

ItalianBoy

Boy Fears: The Outs

The other day I caught myself being a right dick. And I was like fuuuuck. I really don’t wanna be Mitchell and have ItalianBoy be Jack. Like I could see myself so easily letting that happen.

Whereas in reality I’m Jack, and I’m hoping he’s gonna be my Scruffy.

Boys Update: Amazing weekend.

On Friday I took him out to supper. To this really great vegetarian resto. Then I met his group of closest friends. It went super AMAZING. They grilled me so hard and it was beautiful to see how much they cared about him.

Saturday night we went clubbing together for the first time. Was with some of his annoying homo “friends.” Such a fucking tits night though. The DJ was incredible!! 

He stayed over at my place afterwards. And met my mom in the morning. She likes him. It was cute. 

I’m really happy with where things are at so far :)

Boys Update:

Second date with ItalianBoy went SOOOO well :D!! I think I’ve already decided and I choose him. He’s pretty cute and we vibe so good :)

Also, he really likes me

Home Invasion.

I’m okay. A random man came into my room while I was in bed. Didn’t end up stealing anything. I scared him off. Fucking messed up! I live on the third fucking floor!! Ughhh